Well Ryan and I had a good Christmas this year. I had to work Christmas eve night which was not very fun. I was up by 11am getting ready for dinner by 4. Not much sleep! Ryan got me a beautiful Sapphire and diamond ring. I found it a couple months ago but it was expensive so I wanted to hold off on it, but Ryan surprised me! I wanted sapphires because that was my mom's birth stone and thought it was a great memorial to her! Here is a pic:

Right now it is getting sized so I don't get to wear it quite yet.

Anyway, I started my new job yesterday and I LOVE IT!!! It is very different than the hospital, but everyone is nice, the patients are nice. Its just awesome! I have 3 more nights (maybe) at the hospital and I'm done with that! I think I may be feeling sick on Friday and Saturday!! haha

Tomorrow, we are having a little New Years party here with my BFF, her husband, her brother, and his fiance. It should be fun watching everyone else drink. I don't get to but thats ok! I would rather err on the cautious side in case I have some "goats" (long story) in there!! haha

Well Happy New Year to all!

PRAISE GOD!

Well, one of my prayers has been answered!! I got an awesome new job! I am getting out of the hospital and will be working in an endoscopy center starting 12/29! The hours and the people are wonderful! I will be working Monday-Friday 6am-2:30pm. No weekends or holidays. This has been a prayer of mine for a long time.
I have been so stressed at work and all the changes that were happening. The stress was affecting Ryan and I a great deal; we were starting to fight alot, and I think it also affected my ability to get pregnant (though it hasn't happened yet, I think we are close). I can't take my medication at a specific time everyday because the time I went to bed varied so much. Though I have 3 weeks of my other job left, I think I can deal with that.
In a way, I am scared to leave the hospital. It is all I have ever known as a nurse and I will really really miss the people I work with. I am the awesome nurse I am today because of some of those people. Well that is all for now. Not much new with Ryan. He still loves his job and what he does everyday! He is an inspiration to me.....not to mention my rock too! Thanks baby! Love you!

Well I went back to the doctor's office today for my post-op appointment. I do in fact have endometriosis. Dr. M says it is Stage 2, but could almost be stage 3 since he removed a huge cyst from my ovary. Ryan and I got to see the pictures and they were kinda cool! There were 2 large spots of endo on my uterus and somewhere else (I forget already) and the endometrial cyst on the ovary. It looked like a plum, same color and all. Yucky! Glad he got it all off. Now my insides are nice and pink like they are supposed to be! YAY! Well except for the polycyctic ovaries (in which the cysts are on the inside of the ovaries).
So now with the next cycle, we are moving on to injectables with IUI. Though the meds are like $800 a month, we already have most of the meds since we bought them last year. So just pray that we only have to do one month to get our most precious and wanted gift!!! Dr. M seems to think this is the best road and we agree. He is a wonderful and the most personable doctor ever!!! (And I know lots of doctors!!)
Well that is about all going on for now! We are just getting ready for Christmas. Cards are mailed and all presents so far are wrapped so I just wanna bake some more cookies. We are unsure of what we are doing for Christmas Eve/Day since I have to work Christmas eve night, but even if we stay home, we will have each other!!! TTFN

Ok I am not sure anyone reads this blog or not since no one comments but I guess I will keep blogging in case there is a poor soul who does read it....
So obviously I made it through surgery, though it feels like I barely did. I wasn't really even nervous Wednesday morning, I just wanted to get it over with. Of course my doctor was late getting to the hospital, so instead of going at 1, I went at 1:30. 30 min may not seem like a long time, it is when all you want is a drink of water! I get all checked in and ready. A girl from anesthesia comes in to start my IV. Of course she starts in my hand which I know she won't get but whatever. So the second try I tell her where to go. She numbs me this time and gets it without a problem. Then I am taken on a long journey to the OR. I was laying in the operating room getting all hooked up for surgery just waiting and the CRNA kept asking if I wanted something to help me relax and I kept saying I don't care because I wasn't all that nervous but finally I gave in and he gave me some good sleepy juice. Dr. Mooney then came in and made some remark about me not having alot to say but I really didn't care at the time cuz I was in lala land by that time!! Anyway, the next thing I remember is being in the recovery room feeling claustrophobic due to the mask they put on my face. grrrr. Warning TMI! Then I tell the nurse I feel like I have to pee or have a BM so she puts me on the bedpan (ewww) and I can't go and she tells me "I already emptied your bladder" (she straight cathed me and more on that later). So then I proceed to ask her what they found (all while on the very comfortable bedpan bt I didn't care because I was still half asleep) and I in fact have endometriosis, which they lasered away. I also had a cyst on my right ovary which they removed and cleaned out my uterus (I forget the technical term she said since I was so tired). By this time, I am having a ton of pain and pressure in my abdomen and up into my right shoulder. The nurse gives me a dose of fentanyl, which does nothing at all for me. She gives me 2 more doses and still it doesn't help so I just deal with the pain by now. She then tells me that I haven't been looking good and has been giving me some fluids through my IV. Anyway, I am off the bedpan by now and then she tells me I am going to have to get up into a chair. hahahaha But I do it anyway because I wanna go home and go to bed. I get taken to stage 2 recovery and I get ice water!!! yay! I also get a percocet for the pain (I don't recommend these, I about puked on the way home). The nurse (who is a male) states he needs to see my incisions and check my "vaginal bleeding" so I let him (eww). Apparently everything is ok. Then Ryan, Dad, Marty and Stacy are brought back to see me. I sit there for a while then get up to pee and then get dressed and go home!!
Overall the surgery went well. My belly was really bloated from the gas they put in my stomach (so it was easier to look around). I also have severe shoulder pain (and still do) from the gas. (long explanation needed, we will just say it is normal) I got 2 tiny incisions, one in my belly button and one on my lower right abdomen, that hurt more than you would think. I must admit that I am a big wimp though and i don't deal with pain well. It is a known fact that nurses make the worse patients!!
I also must say that I have the most wonderfu husband ever!! Ryan is taking such good care of me and is doing everything for me, though today I am on my own because he had to go back to work today. I was given specific instructions not to do anything. I really can't do anything anyway because the minute I take the heating pad from my shoulder, I get shooting nerve pains down my arm and it goes numb (all normal). So I am being lazy again!! Oh and yesterday we went to my dad's and Marty's house for dinner so I didn't have to worry about cooking. I really wasn't in the mood to eat and if I ate too much my belly would just get bloated and it would hurt even more so basically I ate a little and then took a nap and then ate dessert and came home and went to bed!! So exciting! Anyway, hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgivng!! I go back to see the doctor in 2 weeks and we will determine what to do from there!

So in case anyone doesn't know by now, I am having surgery November 26th (yes the day before Thanksgiving). Why you ask? My reproductive endocrinologist believes that I may have endometriosis on top of my PCOS. Odds are that I do since most women who have fertility issues have at least a mild case of endometriosis. The only way to diagnose and treat it is to have a laproscopy under general anesthesia. They will make an incision in my belly button and feed a camera in my abdominal cavity to look around and remove it if it is present. Although it seems like an easy surgery where nothing could go wrong, I am scared to death. Being a nurse makes you know too many things and all the things that could go wrong! Darn knowledge!! So just pray for me! Another thing is that I work Tuesday night and I have been warned that I may not wake up from anesthesia that well since I will be really tired! I am trying to get someone to work for me but the only person left is on sick leave with the shingles and she won't know if she can work until Monday and I have yet to ask her if she is even willing.... Just pray she is better and willing!! haha
Anyway, my wonderful husband decided that he wanted to get into an accident on the first day of snow for the winter season! haha Actually it wasn't his fault. A lady in front of him lost control of her car going down a hill and tried to correct and spun. Ryan tried to miss her but hit her in the back bumper. No one was hurt and the only damage was to her car and it was a cracked bumper. Her insurance agreed it was her fault so we don't have to worry about paying fines or increasing insurance. So I guess its all good!
Oh another prayer request I will throw out there is that if you remember in my last post about trying to find a day shift job etc etc and all the struggles, well there is a pretty good chance I can stay where I am at! A day shift position may open up soon in my unit so I will work 3 days a week 7a-7p! I'm sooooo excited at even getting an opportunity. So my boss knows I am interested and she just has to check with the rest of night shift, but I don't think anyone else would want it! So premature YAY!
Hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving and I will try to update on my surgery ASAP!

Sorry its been so long but nothing much has been happening on our end, but I will try to piece something together. One thing that seems to be a theme in my life recently is that I am meant to stay at my current job at this present moment. I'll explain: I have been applying and interviewing for jobs the last few months in hopes of finding a day shift mon-fri job because night shift is really wearing on me. I believe that I am a very qualified person for the variety of jobs that I have applied for but apparently the employers do not believe this. I just got another denial letter today...blah. I am not used to failure, but its just as well I suppose. I think that God is trying to tell me that I am supposed to stay an ICU nurse for now, which if I am honest, works out better for us for now. The money is good and when we have kids some day (soon I hope) I can continue to work full time since I only work 3 days a week and we would only need a sitter/daycare 2 days per week.
Anyway.......
We had a good weekend this week. Friday we went to this new little family restaurant which was pretty good and then to Walmart. Saturday Ryan worked and I worked at Malone for a few hours to help out and then we went over to our friends', Mark and Becky, for dinner. Yesterday we went to church and then lounged around and relaxed (and the seventh day you shall rest :-P). Today, we slept in and then did yard work (pulling dead plants and raking leaves). We are going to Life Group tonight at 6, which for those of you who don't know is bible study with several other couples that we do every Monday night. I work Tues Wed Thurs and then probably do something with Stacy and Shawn (hopefully :P) on Saturday. I miss them lots!!!
That's all for now!

Oy Vey

Well today is my birthday and I feel so old. Once you graduate from college, the years go by so fast!! I can't believe I am 26 so close to 30 and have been married for over 3 years!! I am an adult.....good or bad guess I can't change that. Sometimes it makes me sad that it is going so fast and other times I realize how lucky I am and life has worked out as I had dreamed it for the most part (the lack of my mom and my own children by now has not turned out....). I have a great husband, great friends and family, my very own house, and a pretty great career (opinions change daily on that haha). I am better off than most and I am so proud of what Ryan and I have accomplished, but I still feel old, like I wanna be 24 or 25 forever. Well too late now, 26 here I come.
Ok feeling a little better as I am blogging though I feel like a lunatic for writing all this, but aren't blogs for being a little crazy and getting your thoughts out..... haha. Anyway, Happy Birthday to me and all you other people getting old out there....
(I promise no more crazy posts like this and I want no comments from the peanut gallery....you know who you are)

Our Bedroom

So after 3 years of living in our house, we have finally started remodeling our bedroom!! YAY! As I said in the previous post, we ripped up our bedroom carpet over a year ago and wanted to refinish the floors. Today we painted it! I already knew the color scheme I wanted. My best friend, Stacy, and I picked out a beautiful comforter set and pictures a couple weeks ago....

The color is a little off in the picture but the stripes are brown and the blue part is more of a teal. The pictures I got are from Kirklands so you know they are nice!! haha The other wall hanging I got is actually a sconce and it will go over the bed....

Ryan and I bought an area rug last Monday to go at the end of the bed to keep our feetsies warm.......

So after all of that and after weeks of indecision, we picked the paint color yesterday. It is called Fawn's Leap but as Ryan says it looks like creamy chocolate milk. I agree; it looks so yummy and beautiful. Pictures just don't do it justice! So here is part of our paint job.....
The old color was like a tan purple ugly color so there is a big difference as you can see. Well that is all for now. I will post pictures when it is totally finished! Oh wait! One more picture....
This is the bedroom furniture that we picked out and this will be our Christmas present to each other. The bed has drawers underneath for more storage. Our bedroom is small so only one dresser (the one with the mirror) will fit along with 2 night stands!! Good night for now!!

OK, so Ryan and I decided (well I decided and Ryan finally agreed) to rip up the carpet in the living room. We knew that there were hardwood floors underneath because we ripped the carpet up in our bedroom like a year ago and they were original hardwood. The kicker was we weren't sure what condition they were in. Our bedroom floors were OK but would need refinished due to stupid people who do not know how to paint and dog pee stains. Since we were already going to refinish that someday, I wanted hardwood floors in the living room as well. I saw a friends house that had hardwood floors in the living room and it was gorgeous.

Anyway, Ryan was nervous they would be really bad but.......

SURPRISE, they were actually in pretty good shape. They do need refinished due to scratches and of course paint around the perimeter. I also don't like the color much, its too orange. We have decided to stain them a darker color. I am so excited!!!! Here is another picture. Even Kamie likes them!

So we plan on having someone come out the week of October 27th to redo them and fairl reasonably, too. Some people wanted $2000 for the bedroom, hallway, and living room, which are actually not very big in our tiny ranch. We could have gotten new floors for 1/2 that price so we said screw them and hired a cheaper guy. We actually saw one of his previous customers floor and he did an awsome job. I'll post more when they are finished!!!

OOO my first post!!

Hello all! Welcome to Ryan and I's blog. I hope to fill it with interesting and witty moments that happen in our lives....Hopefully not too boring! Enjoy!